A warm heart

Today’s been an interesting day. Day 228 is in the books, I’m currently in some kids bed, I think he’s been relocated for the night haha, I served my time when I was young it’s his turn 😂 I had a good day by myself for the most part, thinking about who I want to be, how I’ll get there and who the role models of this archetype are. I’m still settled on Uncle Iroh and the prophet Moses. Why them? Why not the prophet Muhammad? Well for me it’s simple. I can never be the prophet Muhammad, to me his life is more like the Quran a book on guidance without flaw. Same for Jesus. Yet Moses, aha my brother had anger issues, argued with god, and never finished his final journey. Now that’s relatable. Iroh? Look at what bro did to Ba-sing-sai, he lost his son and gained another. Who he was a role model for. All by looking inward. I thought of the great examples of men from before my time, How they were not just brutes (though those existed) but they were softer in heart. They would write literature and poetry, they were gentle to those weaker than them, and strong in the face of those who threatened those who couldn’t defend themselves. They spoke wisely while paying attention to the vices that derail man. They were men. I thought of how the idea of a “man” has become so distorted. This idea that men should be dull strong rocks with money and female attention is imo wrong. I prefer the man who can be a warrior in a garden, who plants flowers to admire there beauty, trees such that others can enjoy their shade, And would spend time heeding the whispers of the heart. I am bias, because I spend my time walking towards this. Alas the day continues, I reached tekirdag, I moved through the city reaching a point where I could camp, the sun was setting and my frustration was rising. Exhausted I was, I wanted the day to be done. I couldn’t find a place to sleep. I went to the prayer room to speak with god, And met some brothers there. Shortly after I was enjoying chai and nuts with one of them and his family. Sharing stories through translate with his child, his wife, brother, and mother in law. I was welcomed, this woke me up and made me smile. This was followed by another inviting me into his home, inviting me to do laundry, feeding me, and offering a bed. I went to speak to god in a time of anxt and unexpectedly he delivered. Now I close my eyes to sleep. Tomorrow is a new day